Life Happens

My husband has been going through a lot lately. It's put a strain on us in certain moments. You don't know the true meaning of marriage until you experience pain within it. How you deal with the situations life throws at you, or him/her, or you two as a whole determines how strong your marriage really is. We are young and still learning. I'm still learning a lot, and it's really a journey. It's not easy. I hate seeing people so anxious to marry just for the title. It's work, and it's a job - 365 days a year as my brother in law would say.

When he hurts, I hurt.

I can't describe how bad it feels to witness hurt or pain in his face. He is my best friend before anything, so it's to the point where I'm ready to pounce on anyone that hurts or upsets him. He doesn't show that kind of emotion. Out of the five years of just merely being in each other's lives, he's always blocked things out. He is need a victim, or pathetic being. He picks himself up. This is how he's dealing with his situation. And as his wife.. I just have to help/protect him through what he's going through.

I have cried a lot. Even in his arms, and I love knowing that I can be there for him. I love being the shoulder he can lean on. It helps me to cope. Wether he's having a bad day, etc.. it helps me be more understanding towards him. We don't really argue, fuss and fight. It's hard when little things start to come up, or when one person just blows something out of proportion. I'm just thankful that it's with him. I'm thankful I can be there at his worst and best, vice versa. It makes you appreciate the people you have around you. 

Marriage is work. But at the end of the day, it's worth it. When one is going through something, you have to get through it together. I am in love with this commitment to one being. 

Dedicated To My One & Only

The chemistry between us is something I really can not put my finger on..

I am so drawn and attracted to your demeanor.. your outlook on life, the way you look tame when I do something silly or gross. I am so in love with your smile, the way cologne smells on you - only you. I love how you overlook everyone else's mistreating of you.. you still smile when you don't have a reason to. You find happiness in the most simplest of things. I love how you treat me. You have made me a stronger person.. I don't have to be a victim anymore. I love how you touch me. Your hands are so big, and you cherish each part of my body. Each and every little line resembling the birth of a child. Every little dent on my upper thighs. My fragile wrist. My skinny frame. You cherish it, you make me feel like someone on TV. I don't feel flawed when I'm with you. You sweat for me, I sweat for you.

When we argue it's like a tornado. Trying to rip everything in sight to shreds.. or trying to scoop everything in one big pile to keep it close? You are my calm, after the storm. It's so strange that after five years, you know me more than people who have known me my whole life. I understand you so well. You compliment my personality, you are my better other half. You make me the good person I've always wanted to be but never had the courage to act upon.

I can breathe better when I'm with you, things aren't as cloudy.
I love the sound of your laugh. I love when you push my hair out my face and kiss my forehead.
Or when you pull my chin up to kiss you.
When you ask me questions while we're underneath the covers giving our bodies to each other.
When you speak to me with your body, you never have to really say a word - I just know.

I am so happy you asked me to be yours forever. I am so grateful you helped me grow as a person, and took my out of being so unhappy with myself. I appreciate the beautiful children we have together. I'm so thankful they can be the few children to say they have the same mother and father, who are still very much in love. It's odd to say, but I don't think it'll ever fade. You aren't my lover, you are the ultimate best friend. The best friend I have with unlimited sleep overs, and knows all my secrets. What are secrets anyways? I forgot.. because you know everything.

You are my better other half. You are the best thing that has ever happened to our kids & I.

You are an amazing person.

xoxo

Fart Blasters & More Shopping ?!

Ohhhh heyyyyy ;) My newest vlog can be found here: VLOG #6

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This has to be one of my favorite & funniest vlogs.. Domo literally lied to the lady at Burger King and told her it was his first time there just so she could make sure his, I quote, "Experience is great". Ugh… he's so SLOW! I love that man… Anyways - Happy Holidays, beauty. <3

AH! Late as Hell.

Hey My Lovie's !!

Oh my gosh you guys.. have I been neglecting my blog? I've literally been on this Youtube tip, editing & filming that I haven't had time to really write. I'm the type of writer who has to write from inspiration though.. I have to have SOMETHING to write about. I can't just write to write. I hate when I can't find the right words to say.. But how have you guys been? How is life treating you? Seriously, life is crazy as hell.. I realized so much lately and I just want to share it with you guys..

I realized how many good people I have in my life. It's only a handful but I'm perfectly fine with that. The friends I keep around are literally friends I've had since high school. We don't speak much, but I truly appreciate them. I think about all the times we don't speak, but I understand we all have busy lives. I'm so grateful for them though. I'll never forget how they've let me live with them, bought things for my children, took care of me and paid for my food! All that good stuff.. I'm truly thankful for them for still being there for me after all these years. I'm also grateful that I don't have to speak to them every day just to show that we're friends. It's so comforting.

I also am focusing on being a better sister, mother, daughter & wife.

I've been calling my sister frequently just to talk. She doesn't annoy me like in the past. I would hate when she would call me, and growing up I realized how stupid that was. Especially as much as she does for me, it feels good hearing her voice. I love her so much and I love seeing her, she's my best friends basically. 

I am so in love with my kids. I've gotten better with my patience and instead of yelling when I'm upset, or thinking irrationally - I love. I hug when I want to cry. I kiss cheeks when I want to cry. I laugh when I feel overwhelmed. I just love them so much, they are incredible and make me who I am. They've given me a full time job with multiple rewards. A lifetime of unpredictable events. I love serving quality, healthy meals and seeing Adrian clean his plate with a huge smile. Giving Jonas a warm bottle when he wakes up from a nap with puffy eyes and fat cheeks, embracing his warmth. My boys are awesome.. I feel good knowing I put Love before everything. I feel good being their safe place. I feel good when my son calls for me when he's worried, needs something, etc. It feels so good to be "there". To be a dependable mother. Nuturing, caring, there for them no matter what. It feels good to clean a poopie diaper and have a little one laugh at you like, "sorry mom". I am not trading this time, or position for the world. Everything in this world revolves around them. I've done a great job by cutting off people who don't include my kids in their life as well. Don't need my kids around? I don't need you around :)

I've been seeing my Dad more than ever before. It's easier for me to go see him and speak with him about things I've never thought about talking about before. It feels good to be on good terms again. It feels good to know he views me as an adult, not as a child anymore. I respect him for his skills as a Father and a real genuine person in general for dealing with my teenage bullshit. Giving me the chance to learn on my own, which I'm grateful in a sense.. because without it, I wouldn't have grown up as fast. I would've been a spoiled brat for life ;)

….My wife skills have been on point you guys…. ;) HA! But no seriously, I've been a better wife than ever before. I love knowing that I'm loving my man the way he needs to be loved. I feel perfect around him. I love serving him a meal after work. Massaging his back after he dances (and nearly breaks his damn back). Listening to him vent, and giving him advice. This marriage is truly a friendship with benefits lol. But seriously, he is the greatest friend I've ever had. I am so incredibly blessed to have someone who accepts me raw, and loves every speck of me. We have this weird mutual understanding, I can't explain. Laying in the bed with him having pillow talk. Waking up in the middle of the night just to smack his ass to scare him and fall back asleep like I didn't do anything (I'm weird, sorry) (I also put Jonas's boogers on him because I know he hates it mwahaha). Yeah… I'ma bout that life you guys. I have no regrets, he was tailored for me. Made for me. I was made to take care of this man, vice versa. It's so rewarding when you finally get it right. 

I love you guys ! I'm sorry I've been M.I.A. I've been soul searching and living life. Enjoying the good times, and I'm so happy and thankful for this life. I pray for you all! Happiness and love - all of that. If I could hug you I would… but the way my laptop screen is set uppppppp. ;[

BlissWithRis <3

LITTLE GYM ADVENTURES

Yesterday was so much fun you guys !!! We went to the little gym for a birthday party for my husband's uncle's son. He turned one ! Time flies.. The Little Gym was insanely fun for Adrian (Jonas can't quite play yet). He went before when he was one and didn't really like it as much as he did Sunday. He was playing with everything.. I will put a blog up soon, but here's pictures :) After this day, I was truly blessed for family. Domo and I were just admiring our boys.. seeing Adrian so happy literally made me want to flipping cry. That's when I knew motherhood has taken over me completely. Seeing my children happy, no worries, etc - that's what makes ME happy. No matter what, even when they have they're own family one day, I will always do what I can to see them happy. NO MATTER WHAT. I don't care if their old, I want to see them smile.

 I am so thankful for them.. How many people can say, "I'm thankful for my children". ? The fact that Adrian just appreciated the time he had, you could tell he was so grateful. It surprised me how well & friendly he was with the other children also. This boy literally just wants to play, he has such a kind heart/soul. He also had fun showing off his little brother ;)

I'm also thankful for the ladies at The Little Gym. They were so SWEET, and nice. You can tell they love children and really want to help. It's not an easy job and they have so much patience without pressuring the kids. I can not wait to go back !

CAKE POPS! The cake & cake pops were made by Domo's uncles wife. So amazing !! AND GOOD.

tummy time was a success, the ladies were so great with him.

Adrian was literally attached to this woman. He wouldn't leave her side, and wanted her to hold him, etc. 

WHAT'S A PARTY W/O FILIPINO FOOD?! So happy because they had flan there to :)

Don't even get me started on how Adrian was with Spiderman… He loved Spiderman until Spiderman actually came inside…. SMHliterally wouldn't let us put him down.

they all pulled their own string for the piñata.

xoxo

Granny Jammie's

So granny (my husband's grandma) came by today and got the boys some pajamas ! She also bought Adrian some new cars, socks, chips, and a bunch of love. I'm so grateful for her.. it was unexpected and I loved the time I had with her today. I love how she calls to tell me she misses them. How much love she puts into the little things. She's so giving and deserves the world, truly. She gave them both hugs and kisses. I love that woman so much. I can't help but feel so grateful to have someone who loves my boys that much. She even remembered to get Jonas's clothes in 6-9 months :)

I couldn't help but take pictures of them wearing them after their bath. Daddy came home with Chick Fil A (I was to hungry to take a picture, ya girl was starvvvvving). After that we watched Jonas have his tummy time. HE HATES TUMMY TIME. He's so lazy, at this age Adrian was lifting his head up so well. Jonas just gives up. If he's on someones shoulder he can hold it up perfectly, or if someone is holding. After tummy time, we gave the kids a bath together :) I wanted to take pictures of that to.. but I decided to just enjoy the moment. 

My husband with his work pants unbuttoned, vneck showing his yummy muscles, collecting all Adrian's cars to place in the tub, getting Jonas naked and kissing all his rolls.. Almost being covered in water trying to bathe these crazy boys of ours.. Both of them crying when it was time to wash their hair.. hearing Adrian burst out in giggles, and seeing Jonas slowly falling asleep and moving along with the waves Adrian was creating. Drowning our kids in baby lotion.. Kissing them all over again and making them laugh before bed. 

There is no love greater than this. 

Being home with the kids all day can be exhausting, being at work all day can be equally as exhausting. So just having him work as a team with me, with no questions asked - feels so good. I've seen men who come home, ignore their kids, polo their butt on the couch, and chill for the rest of their night. The thing I love about Domo is that he takes care of what needs to be done before relaxing. If I ask for help, he gives it. He washes the dishes after I cook, and if he doesn't get to he tells me he'll do them in the morning (Which I don't mind doing them in the morning, since he leaves so early for work). I love how he will brush Adrian's teeth at our set time for bedtime. He'll help me take care of the kids so that we can have time to ourselves quicker. I am so so so grateful.

xoxo

BODY ISSUES & BAGELS VLOG #3 | BlissWithRis

Don't forget to watch in 1080p for the best quality ! :) (the settings option on the video)

What's a day with us like? Here's what a typical day is like with me and the kids. I tried filming everything but it's kind of difficult with two. I'll have more fun blogs, like when we actually go places and have fun - but this is just a typical day for me. LOVE YOU !

The Time is Now

You ever feel dark ? Literally wearing dark colors, dark makeup, etc. I'm a dark happy mood. I feel… UGH I can't even describe it. I feel good, but I feel dark. I feel deep (ha). 

December FAVS

SOOOOOO… I haven't had time (or been in the mood) to write lately. I have a couple things going on, I'm trying so hard not to vent about them (don't want to hurt anyone's feelings) so just bare with me here! Anyways, on a positive note - I did a December Favorites video yesterday, just a couple of items I'm loving right now. Go check it out, boo ! Don't forget to watch in 1080p (adjust the settings on the video)! the link is below :

CURRENT DECEMBER FAVORITES | BlissWithRis

xoxo

Love is… (Pictures)

Two is Better Than One <3

Foodie?

Hey Loves! So I made another video, and it may be boring to you .. hopefully not.. BUT it's a grocery haul! We picked up a few things yesterday, and I just wanted to show you all, it may give you some ideas to get something new :) I'm sorry it's so short, I was rushing ! Here's the link:

Grocery Haul #1 | BlissWithRis

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Deep Breakfast Gazes

I never knew how important quality vs. quantity time was - until I had my second son. Having two kids is awesome, but I also have two kids under the age of three, who need me pretty much 24/7. They're both special, and have different wants and needs. In the mornings, I'm usually feeling guilty for sleeping in an extra 15 minutes, or energized while everyone's still sleeping (leaving me to crash later on). When everyone's awake and I'm trying to get bottles made, diapers changed, potty time, breakfast, coffee, etc - I usually give Adrian my phone to play with and he sits in front of Jonas (while Jonas is whimpering away for mommy). I caught myself looking at my two year old the other day.. just gazing at him while Daniel Tiger sang a catchy song. Observing his little frame, big eyes, calm demeanor. I felt a tinge of guilt for not being able to give him what I used to be able to give him. Which was all of me. My undivided attention. I felt guilty that he had my phone to keep him occupied, even though he was clearly enjoying himself.

I don't know if I'm the only one, but I sure felt sadness overwhelm me. Why? Why did I feel so guilty? For some reason I felt like I was shooing him away just to get what I had to get done. So I took my phone away. He cried bloody murder, of course. I picked him up (while Jonas was kicking and whining for me). I gave him kisses and brought him in the kitchen. I showed him the pancakes I was making, which surprisingly was very interesting to him? I asked him if he wanted a "Big Boy smoothie" and he happily said "Mhmm! mhmm!". I made a big deal about him having his own smoothie. I couldn't stop wrapping my arms around him.. my Big Boy. The one I can tell secrets to, and it feels like he understands. The one that pats my back, rubs my head, and says, "Alright, mommy?" when I pretend to be sad just to get some cuddles. He's so darn big. The little boy who prefers showers over baths (not kidding). He asks to hold his baby brother, and gets sad if I deny his requests. My big Boy.

I suddenly felt okay again. As a Mom, I felt good again. I didn't feel guilty. And I say this because I know they're mom's out here who have felt this very same way. Turning on the TV to occupy your little one so you can get what YOU need done. Forgetting to ask your toddler questions. Not stopping to give enough hugs. Everything changes once another little comes into your life, but what about your first? Even though he hates my constant kisses.. I give them anyways. Because he'll only be 2 - once. He'll only be this little - once. I won't be able to get this time back, and I want to remember it.. even without the pictures. 

XOXO

& For You...

Hey Girl Hey.

Do you see how big my boys have grown? Compared to pictures you've seen before, do you notice the difference? I am full of an immense amount of love looking at previous pictures of these boys that are all mine. ALL MINE ?! I apologize for being so incognito on the blog every once and awhile. I am consumed in motherhood, and I apologize (even though I know most moms understand, no apology needed, ya'll understand). 

SO. I actually got my period recently (shortest period ever!) and it made me super emotional/dramatic. I suffer from anxiety really bad. I know most people love being proud to say something is wrong with them, ex. "Yeah! I totally have ADHD! Crazy right?!". But I would honestly love to be.. normal. I would love to not freak out when surrounded by a group of people that my mind will consider a "crowd". I would love to keep calm and not feel tingly when someone misplaces something, if one thing is out of place or missing, if routine isn't followed, if I don't leave 30 mins before to get to my destination - it's ANNOYING. And I'm a very annoying person when it kicks in. I hate feeling ANXIOUS. Your heart starts to race, you get sweaty, your mind feels fried, all of a sudden your moody, nervous, etc. IT'S NOT THE BUSINESS, girl… ANYWAYS, I've been trying to get a hold of it. I feel like I've had an accomplishment yesterday. I had to run errands, and the only way to do so was to take the boys with me. It was the first time I would be alone with the boys IN PUBLIC, by MYSELF. Talk about crowds.. Monday mornings isn't the day to run errands. I was surrounded by people.. Jonas was crying, Adrian was bored. But I kept my cool.. while eyes were glaring at me (which is annoying BTW. If you're one of those people that stare at moms when they're trying to get their kids in shape STOP. It's annoying, it's rude. After 5 secs, why are you still staring?!)

I'm proud of myself because I stuck to my guns. THIS WILL NOT BEAT ME, I kept saying to myself. I wanted to cry (you may think I'm being dramatic, but I was so anxious/embarrassed). I was wishing Domo was next to me, helping me, taking control. But I realized he can't be with me all the time, and I have to be superMom right now. I just breathed through it. I pretended I was home. I didn't care who saw me, I didn't care that I was the only person sitting on the ground, I didn't care that I was making a bottle on the floor and playing peek-a-boo with Adrian while Jonas was hollering. I just didn't give a damn. I didn't get upset with myself, or most importantly - my kids. This is life. This is what they were born to do, and it's my job to keep my cool to make them feel safe. I felt so proud of myself. Life actually rewarded me, because even through my frustration and split seconds of me wanting to leave - I ended up being called early by the woman and was out of there within minutes. Thank God… haha.

But it just goes to show you that, "nothing good comes from frustration," as my husband would say :) I loved myself more after yesterday, I loved my kids more (even though that's never possible, lol), I just loved who I was at that moment. For really putting in the effort and not giving up. You my friend, have to not give a damn - sometimes. When you get that anxious feeling, BREATHE. Analyze your surroundings. Is it worth it? Hold your tears, breathe. Do not let it defeat you. Do what needs to be done and keep your cool. Focus on something else. While Jonas was crying, I thought about the big smile he gave me minutes before.. when Adrian was rolling around on the ground talking gibberish, I thought about the boy who gave mommy a hug just because. See? Don't give up! I feel so accomplished from my little episode yesterday, I had to share. 

Love yourself enough to care about how you feel.

& love yourself enough to know that you need to change something, you can not let it beat you or put you in a bad mood. 

XOXO

The End of November //

*we have been obsessed with smoothies in our cup lately. smoothie mustache all day*

It's bittersweet.. it really is. The end of November always reminds me that winter will take full effect soon, and the laves will completely fall off. I haven't gotten any really great pictures of the trees this year, but I did soak them in my memory - so I can't be upset. November went by TO fast. I can barely remember anything big that happened this month. Jonas turned two months, Thanksgiving, and that's about it - nothing huge though. I am just so blessed to have this life with my family.. I really am. There were split moment during November were financially I couldn't see clearly, but somehow we pulled through and I swear someone is watching over us because new opportunities have came our way.. to help better our lives - our boys. Thank you, November ! 

Turkey Shenanigans ++

Hey Love!

I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving ! I swear.. sometimes I sit and think what life would be like without these awesome federal holidays that give you an excuse not to go to work/school :D But seriously, I could not imagine not having a specific day in the year to PIG OUT and not feel guilty nor greedy (there's always that one family member who sends you home with plates)(food for dayssss)("eat more! eat some more!) Anyways, check out how my short Thanksgiving was in the link below:

Thanksgiving & Pooping In The Dark? | VLOG #2

or visit my channel: TheBlissWithRis

Thank you so much, to whoever you are. I check my page views everyday, and I'm overwhelmed with the love + support I receive from you all - people I may know or do not - LOVE YOU !

XOXO

I'll Make Your Day | Ed. 1

Bare With Me: I'm Just Being Me

I love saying, "Ya Bish" after every statement I make.

Hi! My names Freddy. My name is a unisex name. Guess which sex I am though? HA! That's right you'll never know. 

Cornbread > The Human Race. Thou shall not cheat or deceit my dear beloved cornbread.

I'm so heartbroken and confused...because I just watched the mid season finale of The Walking Dead and IT KEEPS LEAVING ME WANTING MORE.. WHY MUST YOU PLAY HARD TO GET…JUST LOVE ME ALREADY.

My inner Vogue. Is my inner vogue. Art. Art is Art. That is All. *snap fingers* *finger snap applause*

Like who are you...? Over there looking AT me.. looking LIKE me.. I was here first, you little witch.

I know Jimmy Neutron got cancelled on Nickelodeon.. But I'm here, don't worry boo I gotchu. Now let's go, Sheen. 

I love Drake's music and wearing socks with leaves on them because I'm just hipster like that. *pulls wedgie from high waisted shorts* 

Are my eyelashes REAL?! Like, these are totally REAL I can't believe you asked me that. Some freaking friend you are!!!! …. Hey do you have any glue ? Just asking.. oh no reason.. it's just like tampons. I mean you do carry glue with you at all times right? *cough* Wait, what? 

Channeling my inner, "Who". #HireMeDrSuess #Whoville #CindyLouWho #RisWho 

Hi, my name's Bertha and I'm going to make you believe I'm turning up/about THAT LIFE but it's really just Coca Cola. You wanna read some fake articles on how McDonalds serves human meat with me?! Or let's watch some conspiracy theory videos on Youtube!

*turns on highest setting on Glow filter* *still can barely see self* 

WHY IS IT SO COLD?! Or.. HOT ?! Fuhhhh, what does "thermal" mean?

I promise I'm there.. see that little uh.. light skin oval.. slightly in the center.. okay now turn your head sideways, and then blink one time, *couhg* and uh.. and shift your body to the left… AH! SEE! There I am! That's MY head right there. Yup. Dat's me. *puts on shades*

I've had a long day. 

 

We just purchased fried chicken… and he used.all.the.damn.hot.sauce.

Love ya! SMILE! Pwease? ^__^ XOXO