Thursday, May 21, 2015

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It’s hard battling a deep sadness you can’t brush to the side, or wash away with water. Constantly fighting with a part of your brain that convinces you that you are not worthy, something is wrong when everything feels right, and that you don’t deserve happiness. Waking up with an anxious feeling because you don’t have it all together, or there’s something else that must be done before you get your rest..

Feeling nauseous, randomly throughout the day. Obtaining a headache that just won’t let up.. And you try your hardest to avoid pain relievers. Feeling like a horrible person because while you’re smiling at your audience, you’re dying inside and you can’t figure out.. W h y. Why? Why me ? Why must I be so odd that I feel this way?

In the midst of that darkness is happiness.. There are reasons to be happy and forget about that anxious feeling your experiencing. At this time, listen to your heart. When it says, “I love my life but….” - take the “but” out and listen to your heart. Leave it at, “I love my life” and ignore any excuse or reason as to why you wouldn’t. Listen to your heart I’m your darkness. Your mind is usually the one telling you the reality of your situation. Your heart tells you about the things you love. The things you have passion for but to lazy to do. Your brain will tell you “this sucks” But your heart will tell you why it doesn’t. It’ll tell you that how you’re feeling is wrong and it deserves to feel warmth and happiness again.

Listen to your heart when you feel the feeling of depression creeping up on you, making you not want to get out of bed. Listen to your heart when it tells you to get up, make some coffee because you deserve it and turn on your favorite tv show..
Listen to your heart, for once. For yourself. For your sanity.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

I have so much to blog about I don't even know where to begin !!

Friday, May 1, 2015

woah.

I know people, well.. those who care to read my my blog or have read it before are wondering where the hell I've been. I've asked myself that, actually. Life - honestly. I completely invested myself into my youtube page, and then slowly migrated to just enjoying my life. Because as you know, bloggers don't have lives - apparently ;) But no seriously, life has just taken over me.

So many things have happened.
I'll talk about them all, one post each, every emotion and event I've went through.
I'm so sorry for neglecting you, readers. All I need is love and support and I miss having that !
<3