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Foodie?

Hey Loves! So I made another video, and it may be boring to you .. hopefully not.. BUT it's a grocery haul! We picked up a few things yesterday, and I just wanted to show you all, it may give you some ideas to get something new :) I'm sorry it's so short, I was rushing ! Here's the link:

Grocery Haul #1 | BlissWithRis

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Deep Breakfast Gazes

I never knew how important quality vs. quantity time was - until I had my second son. Having two kids is awesome, but I also have two kids under the age of three, who need me pretty much 24/7. They're both special, and have different wants and needs. In the mornings, I'm usually feeling guilty for sleeping in an extra 15 minutes, or energized while everyone's still sleeping (leaving me to crash later on). When everyone's awake and I'm trying to get bottles made, diapers changed, potty time, breakfast, coffee, etc - I usually give Adrian my phone to play with and he sits in front of Jonas (while Jonas is whimpering away for mommy). I caught myself looking at my two year old the other day.. just gazing at him while Daniel Tiger sang a catchy song. Observing his little frame, big eyes, calm demeanor. I felt a tinge of guilt for not being able to give him what I used to be able to give him. Which was all of me. My undivided attention. I felt guilty that he had my phone to keep him occupied, even though he was clearly enjoying himself.

I don't know if I'm the only one, but I sure felt sadness overwhelm me. Why? Why did I feel so guilty? For some reason I felt like I was shooing him away just to get what I had to get done. So I took my phone away. He cried bloody murder, of course. I picked him up (while Jonas was kicking and whining for me). I gave him kisses and brought him in the kitchen. I showed him the pancakes I was making, which surprisingly was very interesting to him? I asked him if he wanted a "Big Boy smoothie" and he happily said "Mhmm! mhmm!". I made a big deal about him having his own smoothie. I couldn't stop wrapping my arms around him.. my Big Boy. The one I can tell secrets to, and it feels like he understands. The one that pats my back, rubs my head, and says, "Alright, mommy?" when I pretend to be sad just to get some cuddles. He's so darn big. The little boy who prefers showers over baths (not kidding). He asks to hold his baby brother, and gets sad if I deny his requests. My big Boy.

I suddenly felt okay again. As a Mom, I felt good again. I didn't feel guilty. And I say this because I know they're mom's out here who have felt this very same way. Turning on the TV to occupy your little one so you can get what YOU need done. Forgetting to ask your toddler questions. Not stopping to give enough hugs. Everything changes once another little comes into your life, but what about your first? Even though he hates my constant kisses.. I give them anyways. Because he'll only be 2 - once. He'll only be this little - once. I won't be able to get this time back, and I want to remember it.. even without the pictures. 

XOXO

& For You...

Hey Girl Hey.

Do you see how big my boys have grown? Compared to pictures you've seen before, do you notice the difference? I am full of an immense amount of love looking at previous pictures of these boys that are all mine. ALL MINE ?! I apologize for being so incognito on the blog every once and awhile. I am consumed in motherhood, and I apologize (even though I know most moms understand, no apology needed, ya'll understand). 

SO. I actually got my period recently (shortest period ever!) and it made me super emotional/dramatic. I suffer from anxiety really bad. I know most people love being proud to say something is wrong with them, ex. "Yeah! I totally have ADHD! Crazy right?!". But I would honestly love to be.. normal. I would love to not freak out when surrounded by a group of people that my mind will consider a "crowd". I would love to keep calm and not feel tingly when someone misplaces something, if one thing is out of place or missing, if routine isn't followed, if I don't leave 30 mins before to get to my destination - it's ANNOYING. And I'm a very annoying person when it kicks in. I hate feeling ANXIOUS. Your heart starts to race, you get sweaty, your mind feels fried, all of a sudden your moody, nervous, etc. IT'S NOT THE BUSINESS, girl… ANYWAYS, I've been trying to get a hold of it. I feel like I've had an accomplishment yesterday. I had to run errands, and the only way to do so was to take the boys with me. It was the first time I would be alone with the boys IN PUBLIC, by MYSELF. Talk about crowds.. Monday mornings isn't the day to run errands. I was surrounded by people.. Jonas was crying, Adrian was bored. But I kept my cool.. while eyes were glaring at me (which is annoying BTW. If you're one of those people that stare at moms when they're trying to get their kids in shape STOP. It's annoying, it's rude. After 5 secs, why are you still staring?!)

I'm proud of myself because I stuck to my guns. THIS WILL NOT BEAT ME, I kept saying to myself. I wanted to cry (you may think I'm being dramatic, but I was so anxious/embarrassed). I was wishing Domo was next to me, helping me, taking control. But I realized he can't be with me all the time, and I have to be superMom right now. I just breathed through it. I pretended I was home. I didn't care who saw me, I didn't care that I was the only person sitting on the ground, I didn't care that I was making a bottle on the floor and playing peek-a-boo with Adrian while Jonas was hollering. I just didn't give a damn. I didn't get upset with myself, or most importantly - my kids. This is life. This is what they were born to do, and it's my job to keep my cool to make them feel safe. I felt so proud of myself. Life actually rewarded me, because even through my frustration and split seconds of me wanting to leave - I ended up being called early by the woman and was out of there within minutes. Thank God… haha.

But it just goes to show you that, "nothing good comes from frustration," as my husband would say :) I loved myself more after yesterday, I loved my kids more (even though that's never possible, lol), I just loved who I was at that moment. For really putting in the effort and not giving up. You my friend, have to not give a damn - sometimes. When you get that anxious feeling, BREATHE. Analyze your surroundings. Is it worth it? Hold your tears, breathe. Do not let it defeat you. Do what needs to be done and keep your cool. Focus on something else. While Jonas was crying, I thought about the big smile he gave me minutes before.. when Adrian was rolling around on the ground talking gibberish, I thought about the boy who gave mommy a hug just because. See? Don't give up! I feel so accomplished from my little episode yesterday, I had to share. 

Love yourself enough to care about how you feel.

& love yourself enough to know that you need to change something, you can not let it beat you or put you in a bad mood. 

XOXO

The End of November //

*we have been obsessed with smoothies in our cup lately. smoothie mustache all day*

It's bittersweet.. it really is. The end of November always reminds me that winter will take full effect soon, and the laves will completely fall off. I haven't gotten any really great pictures of the trees this year, but I did soak them in my memory - so I can't be upset. November went by TO fast. I can barely remember anything big that happened this month. Jonas turned two months, Thanksgiving, and that's about it - nothing huge though. I am just so blessed to have this life with my family.. I really am. There were split moment during November were financially I couldn't see clearly, but somehow we pulled through and I swear someone is watching over us because new opportunities have came our way.. to help better our lives - our boys. Thank you, November ! 

Turkey Shenanigans ++

Hey Love!

I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving ! I swear.. sometimes I sit and think what life would be like without these awesome federal holidays that give you an excuse not to go to work/school :D But seriously, I could not imagine not having a specific day in the year to PIG OUT and not feel guilty nor greedy (there's always that one family member who sends you home with plates)(food for dayssss)("eat more! eat some more!) Anyways, check out how my short Thanksgiving was in the link below:

Thanksgiving & Pooping In The Dark? | VLOG #2

or visit my channel: TheBlissWithRis

Thank you so much, to whoever you are. I check my page views everyday, and I'm overwhelmed with the love + support I receive from you all - people I may know or do not - LOVE YOU !

XOXO

I'll Make Your Day | Ed. 1

Bare With Me: I'm Just Being Me

I love saying, "Ya Bish" after every statement I make.

Hi! My names Freddy. My name is a unisex name. Guess which sex I am though? HA! That's right you'll never know. 

Cornbread > The Human Race. Thou shall not cheat or deceit my dear beloved cornbread.

I'm so heartbroken and confused...because I just watched the mid season finale of The Walking Dead and IT KEEPS LEAVING ME WANTING MORE.. WHY MUST YOU PLAY HARD TO GET…JUST LOVE ME ALREADY.

My inner Vogue. Is my inner vogue. Art. Art is Art. That is All. *snap fingers* *finger snap applause*

Like who are you...? Over there looking AT me.. looking LIKE me.. I was here first, you little witch.

I know Jimmy Neutron got cancelled on Nickelodeon.. But I'm here, don't worry boo I gotchu. Now let's go, Sheen. 

I love Drake's music and wearing socks with leaves on them because I'm just hipster like that. *pulls wedgie from high waisted shorts* 

Are my eyelashes REAL?! Like, these are totally REAL I can't believe you asked me that. Some freaking friend you are!!!! …. Hey do you have any glue ? Just asking.. oh no reason.. it's just like tampons. I mean you do carry glue with you at all times right? *cough* Wait, what? 

Channeling my inner, "Who". #HireMeDrSuess #Whoville #CindyLouWho #RisWho 

Hi, my name's Bertha and I'm going to make you believe I'm turning up/about THAT LIFE but it's really just Coca Cola. You wanna read some fake articles on how McDonalds serves human meat with me?! Or let's watch some conspiracy theory videos on Youtube!

*turns on highest setting on Glow filter* *still can barely see self* 

WHY IS IT SO COLD?! Or.. HOT ?! Fuhhhh, what does "thermal" mean?

I promise I'm there.. see that little uh.. light skin oval.. slightly in the center.. okay now turn your head sideways, and then blink one time, *couhg* and uh.. and shift your body to the left… AH! SEE! There I am! That's MY head right there. Yup. Dat's me. *puts on shades*

I've had a long day. 

 

We just purchased fried chicken… and he used.all.the.damn.hot.sauce.

Love ya! SMILE! Pwease? ^__^ XOXO